Tuesday, 18 March 2014
The Book Thief
Thursday, 6 March 2014
Trust no one
Hey everyone
Do you ever feel unimportant? It sucks. Not knowing who is there for you and who actually cares about you. I wish I could read minds and understand what people are thinking because right now there are 7 billion people in the world but 14 billion faces. I know longer know who is my friend anymore and who is actually there for me.
Trust no one. Then you won't get hurt.
This is sad, but becoming increasingly true everyday. I'll find out that one of my 'friends' has said something to someone else trying to cause an argument between me and them. Stop, just stop. I can't stand backstabbers, or two faced people. This sounds incredibly childish, but is the only way I can phrase it. I now dread going to school - not because of the lessons or the teachers but because of the people. I can't wait to leave, to get away from it all. I want friends who support you and are there for you through thick and thin. I want nothing to do with many of the people I know.
I'm sorry. This was a rant and a childish one at that, but I'm feeling so worked up right now I needed to vent.
Speak soon, when I'll hopefully be happier.
Do you ever feel unimportant? It sucks. Not knowing who is there for you and who actually cares about you. I wish I could read minds and understand what people are thinking because right now there are 7 billion people in the world but 14 billion faces. I know longer know who is my friend anymore and who is actually there for me.
Trust no one. Then you won't get hurt.
This is sad, but becoming increasingly true everyday. I'll find out that one of my 'friends' has said something to someone else trying to cause an argument between me and them. Stop, just stop. I can't stand backstabbers, or two faced people. This sounds incredibly childish, but is the only way I can phrase it. I now dread going to school - not because of the lessons or the teachers but because of the people. I can't wait to leave, to get away from it all. I want friends who support you and are there for you through thick and thin. I want nothing to do with many of the people I know.
I'm sorry. This was a rant and a childish one at that, but I'm feeling so worked up right now I needed to vent.
Speak soon, when I'll hopefully be happier.
Monday, 3 March 2014
Losing faith
Hi everyone,
So, this weekend I was taking part in a swimming competition and I did rather well, beating my personal bests in 4 out of 6 of my races - great. However, where I was only knocking up to a second off my times, some of the other swimmers were getting huge personal bests and increasing the gap between myself and them. This made me question myself - am I good enough?
You can't be good at everything and I realise that the races I competed in were not my strongest events. But I found myself getting increasingly upset as others were doing exceptionally well and I was just doing alright. I began to think to myself 'this isn't going to go anywhere' and 'why am I wasting my time doing something I am not even good at?'
But this was a huge life lesson to me. I tried to rethink it and I found myself saying that even if I don't become an olympic champion and smash world records, does this mean I should doubt myself? I am still benefitting from my swimming and I enjoy it - it keeps me healthy, I have made lots of great friends and competitions allow me to see if my training has been paying off. Everyone will have good and bad moments, so why should I lose faith in myself because this one time I haven't done as well as I wanted to.
So, instead of wallowing in self-pity, I have decided that I will train hard so I can achieve what I want to. If I don't put the effort in beforehand, I won't come out with the result I want on the day.
I guess my message is, never doubt yourself. If you work hard and put the effort in, you will reap the rewards! In the end it is down to you. I know this is probably the cheesiest thing I've ever written, but it's helping me so I hope it helps at least somebody else:)
Speak soon...
So, this weekend I was taking part in a swimming competition and I did rather well, beating my personal bests in 4 out of 6 of my races - great. However, where I was only knocking up to a second off my times, some of the other swimmers were getting huge personal bests and increasing the gap between myself and them. This made me question myself - am I good enough?
You can't be good at everything and I realise that the races I competed in were not my strongest events. But I found myself getting increasingly upset as others were doing exceptionally well and I was just doing alright. I began to think to myself 'this isn't going to go anywhere' and 'why am I wasting my time doing something I am not even good at?'
But this was a huge life lesson to me. I tried to rethink it and I found myself saying that even if I don't become an olympic champion and smash world records, does this mean I should doubt myself? I am still benefitting from my swimming and I enjoy it - it keeps me healthy, I have made lots of great friends and competitions allow me to see if my training has been paying off. Everyone will have good and bad moments, so why should I lose faith in myself because this one time I haven't done as well as I wanted to.
So, instead of wallowing in self-pity, I have decided that I will train hard so I can achieve what I want to. If I don't put the effort in beforehand, I won't come out with the result I want on the day.
I guess my message is, never doubt yourself. If you work hard and put the effort in, you will reap the rewards! In the end it is down to you. I know this is probably the cheesiest thing I've ever written, but it's helping me so I hope it helps at least somebody else:)
Speak soon...
Saturday, 22 February 2014
School&Stress
Hi guys, sorry its been a while...
Things have started to get better again and I feel quite happy. Next month is my birthday and I have a shopping trip planned with my friend, aunt and nan. Yay! There is still a lot of crap going on, but it seems to have calmed down and is quite muted now, something which I am thankful for.
Stress is quite a worry for my lately. Next year is my final year in high school and I will have my big exams - oh god. And as if that isn't a scary thought on its own, I (and quite possibly the entire population of Britain) have teachers and parents breathing down our necks telling us we need to do well else we'll probably ruin our lives. The economy is screwed and its difficult enough when you are fully qualified to get a job, let alone if you fail your exams.
Luckily for me, I'm predicted to do well. However, because of this, my family and teachers EXPECT me to do well. This builds the pressure on me, because now I have to do well, I have to achieve what I'm expected to. It's hard, but I suppose this will make me work harder. I'm a competitive person and if I don't do well, I get mad at myself. I bet a lot of people are in the same boat.
Anyway, it's coming to the end of the holiday and I've had a good time just relaxing for a while. Back to the joys of school, fun....It's not all bad, there's some lessons I enjoy, but I wish we could avoid hearing about 'the exams at the end of next year'. I can't wait to get it all over with, but at the same time, I wish I could pause time, right here, right now and get to live in it for a little while longer. The past 3/4 years have flown by! How long will the 5th last?
Speak soon:)
Things have started to get better again and I feel quite happy. Next month is my birthday and I have a shopping trip planned with my friend, aunt and nan. Yay! There is still a lot of crap going on, but it seems to have calmed down and is quite muted now, something which I am thankful for.
Stress is quite a worry for my lately. Next year is my final year in high school and I will have my big exams - oh god. And as if that isn't a scary thought on its own, I (and quite possibly the entire population of Britain) have teachers and parents breathing down our necks telling us we need to do well else we'll probably ruin our lives. The economy is screwed and its difficult enough when you are fully qualified to get a job, let alone if you fail your exams.
Luckily for me, I'm predicted to do well. However, because of this, my family and teachers EXPECT me to do well. This builds the pressure on me, because now I have to do well, I have to achieve what I'm expected to. It's hard, but I suppose this will make me work harder. I'm a competitive person and if I don't do well, I get mad at myself. I bet a lot of people are in the same boat.
Anyway, it's coming to the end of the holiday and I've had a good time just relaxing for a while. Back to the joys of school, fun....It's not all bad, there's some lessons I enjoy, but I wish we could avoid hearing about 'the exams at the end of next year'. I can't wait to get it all over with, but at the same time, I wish I could pause time, right here, right now and get to live in it for a little while longer. The past 3/4 years have flown by! How long will the 5th last?
Speak soon:)
Monday, 27 January 2014
Introduction
Hi everyone,
Thought I'd introduce myself I suppose. I'm Athena. I'm 14 3/4 (yes that 3/4 counts!) Just your average teenage really. My daily life includes: wake up, school, stress, home, food, read, laptop, bed. There is some other, less important stuff hidden away in there somewhere ;).
Anyway, I suppose I wanted to write a blog as a form of escape. Writing is a passion of mine and I guess I can use it to express my feelings. I tend to bottle up my emotions a lot. Don't get me wrong, I have a great family and I love my friends, but I can't tell them absolutely everything. So I want to write it all down here. You don't have to read it. You don't have to care. But at least its out there and it will help me feel better and not so upset.
Wow, that turned depressing real fast. I don't have a sad life, I just let things get me down too easily. I work myself up, get frustrated and need to vent. I'm okay, really:) Bye for now...
Thought I'd introduce myself I suppose. I'm Athena. I'm 14 3/4 (yes that 3/4 counts!) Just your average teenage really. My daily life includes: wake up, school, stress, home, food, read, laptop, bed. There is some other, less important stuff hidden away in there somewhere ;).
Anyway, I suppose I wanted to write a blog as a form of escape. Writing is a passion of mine and I guess I can use it to express my feelings. I tend to bottle up my emotions a lot. Don't get me wrong, I have a great family and I love my friends, but I can't tell them absolutely everything. So I want to write it all down here. You don't have to read it. You don't have to care. But at least its out there and it will help me feel better and not so upset.
Wow, that turned depressing real fast. I don't have a sad life, I just let things get me down too easily. I work myself up, get frustrated and need to vent. I'm okay, really:) Bye for now...
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